Wow! My first post in 15 months... No pressure or anything!!
Much has happened in that time with me, but I'll
try to keep this short.
First of all, I had a look at this forum a few nights ago, and I noticed that some of my old threads have lost some screenshots, and some users were reporting corrupt attachments. Therefore, my main aim at this time is JUST to do some house-keeping, and fix all of my stuff. I don't plan to get real involved again to be honest.
Second, I need to point out that we don't really play Madden in our house any more. Personally, I haven't played a full game in a long time, and I haven't really been doing much modding either. However, when I DO play, the only thing I ever play now is an Irish league mod that I made myself that uses FieldBuilder as its core, and college markings. I'll explain in more detail in a bit, but I need to make it clear now that unfortunately I will never be able to upload this. More later.
Third, I stumbled across an old post of mine the other night, and it kinda resonated with me. Call me vain, but I'm gonna have to quote myself here!
pick6 wrote:I've always tried to encourage folks to have a go, and not feel intimidated by any of this. If you read through my other threads, you'll see that the most important thing I've learnt about modding here is that I've been aiming too low. In everything! FOR YEARS!!
Since I started on here, I've always tried to do the best that I could possibly do. Doesn't matter if it would only turn out average: if that was the BEST that I could possibly do, then I'd be happy with it. But what I found was that not only did I start to achieve those goals, but I actually started to SURPASS them. And then started to surpass them REGULARLY.
It reached the point that when I had to learn how to do hex-editing to create the midfield and 25yd placeholders, I
GENUINELY believed that I would not be able to do that. But I felt I had to try anyway, because recent experience had shown me that I could actually do more than I thought possible. And guess how that turned out?
As I said, much has happened in my life in the last 15 months, and much of it has been extremely challenging. It started with the death of a friend just after I disappeared from here, and continued with all the issues that arose after that, regarding her family and friends.
Just after I left here and things started getting tough, I had a moment where I thought I really wasn't the person to be getting into all this. I thought surely there would be someone else who'd be better-equipped to step up and deal with all of this. But I actually remembered my own advice, and decided I had to try anyway.
The last year or so has been the most difficult year of my life, but I've also achieved more in that year for others (and for myself) than I had done in the previous 10. I found myself out of my comfort zone A LOT, but I learnt to recognise that when you feel that, it's EXTREMELY important to push on through anyway.
Stumbling across that old post of mine made me realise this: it's great advice. Not just for modding, but for the real stuff that comes along. The stuff that's much more important than modding. And
that's what made me want to post again; just to say that I KNOW it's great advice now, because it made such a difference in my life.
So, my plan is do some house-keeping on my old threads, and describe a bit about my own Irish league mod in this FieldBuilder thread, but I'm not gonna get real involved again. Nice to be back though.